I'm going to write. maybe short stories, perhaps my memoor. franki said i probably should do the memoir just now, that i need to focus on just ridding this out. so i need to write. I'm reading about wicca again. Im using my tarot deck more. I think i need to get out of some bad habbits ive allowed to occur. i need to get all this toxic energy, toxic life and view points out of me, cause its like poision and it gets me nowhere. so maybe i can be optimistic, maybe i can get away from this realivly unharmed and become better from it. probably not but its a goal i can maybe get close to. i feel like the least i can get from it, is some good stories, some perspective and ideas and approaches. some starting points on things to write about. I've been completly stagment. i have so much that should be stressing me out but ive completly cut myself off. put everything on mute and walked away. is that depression? i never could tell